The world is even less fair than I thought
If you had problems as a child you might run into a lot of issues as an adult too. It seems the privileged people who had a stable, healthy upbringing and gifted with good looks really have it easier.
And how do I feel these days? Weirdly good. That's the answer I would give.
I gave this little speech at the beginning of 2019 to our awesome Morning Train team.
"2019 looks like the easiest year yet on paper.
We "only" have to grow close to 50% and reach 15 mio in revenue.
Two modern ideas seem to control my actions or my drive.
"Live here and now" is everywhere. We are constantly reminded that life is now and that you have to live in the moment. And if you are not enjoying yourself there is something wrong and you gotta change it.
Passion. Hard work. An intense pursuit of creating something big.
It seems to me that some people have a burning desire to create something truly great that impresses others.
I have been looking for something for a long time.
I knew the outlines of what I wanted: Some physical gathering of people that would bring enlightenment and deeper meaning to all the participants.
I feel lost.
Not lost in my place in this world but lost in my direction forward.
I see now that the comfortable life involves not thinking about the meaning of your existence too much cause that is so far a painful and ironically meaningless path.
I love the internet. Amazing things have come out of it. And my career is based off the internet.
What troubles me, is my reptile brains reaction to having unlimited choices. Unlimited content.
Looking at my past 2 hours browsing history is embarrassing. It goes something like this:
I was supposed to go with my car and 4 other friends on a road trip through Europe. As it always goes though, some people quit just before departure for various reasons (no hard feelings).
So in the end it was only me and one friend left. The hardcore crew.
I have a problem.
Most people seem super boring to me.
I get frightened by the thought of something like a stable traditional family life with perfect balance.
It has become increasingly clear to me lately what it really means to "own" a customer. Of course no company really owns it's customers. We merely serve their needs, and they get rid of us the minute we don't.
There is a lot of conspiracy floating around on the dark corners of the internet about some "New world order" that is taking over the planet step by step.
Sometimes prominent politicians mention a "world government" or a "new world order", and everytime bring a lot of wood to the conspiracy fire.
So that stops you from even wondering if this world government thing could be beneficial.
I just saw one of my old aquaintances from high school post about his experience teaching young people about faith - and in the proces talking about:
I don't exactly know what I want. Very few people do. But it seems the few who do reach higher with less effort.
The key seems to be focus and clarity.
But that whole rant is all boring. Ambition can really be boring. So I thought I would try to paint a picture of my dream instead.
And since I am a bad painter it will have to be done with words.
It is easy to build up an online presense. Nowadays everybody is online through some social media. But it still doesnt mean that we get to understand who that person is as an observer.
I see that the people we really seem to follow online are the ones that video blog. Video is insanely more personal than both text and pictures.
This is my public diary. My passion is building stuff for the future and giving joy to others.
Check my about.me profile if you want the full elevator speech ;)
